As you know, I lived in a diet mentality and dealt with an eating disorder for 10 years and it was a real fucking ordeal.
Every day for a decade my mind was consumed by the thought of food, calories, weight and the way I looked. The insecurity, self-doubt, depression, shame, loneliness, the hunger; physical and emotional.
It screws with you.
When your first and last thought of the day is what you ate, what you didn’t eat or should you eat at all for that extended period of time, it’s damn near impossible to know peace, joy, freedom, love or happiness.
It’s a self-inflicted food prison with no window to the outside.